...and, well, the struggle continues.
This is probably one of the hardest trials I've been in for some time. Certainly, one of the longest in quite a while. I'm discovering all kinds of things about myself. Insecurities I thought I had conquered. Wounds I thought were closed. I've even realized some of the things from my past that I thought I was "okay" with really and truly scarred me almost with a numbing effect. Only now, I do feel them.
The Plan:
I have taken the kids to their Dad. I am shutting myself away this weekend, and planting myself at the feet of Jesus until I hear from Him and things change or until at the very least I am changed. I must have a breakthrough. I am going to ask, knock, seek; ask, knock, seek; ask, knock, seek; ask, knock, seek. (Luke 11:9) In the words of David found in Psalm 143:1, "LORD, hear my prayer, listen to my cry for mercy; in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief."
The Scriptural Foundation:
Job 33:26 "then that person can pray to God and find favor with him, they will see God’s face and shout for joy; he will restore them to full well-being."
Psalm 102:17 "He will respond to the prayer of the destitute; he will not despise their plea."
Jeremiah 29:12-13 "Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. "
Jeremiah 31:9 "They will come with weeping; they will pray as I bring them back. I will lead them beside streams of water on a level path where they will not stumble..."
This is probably one of the hardest trials I've been in for some time. Certainly, one of the longest in quite a while. I'm discovering all kinds of things about myself. Insecurities I thought I had conquered. Wounds I thought were closed. I've even realized some of the things from my past that I thought I was "okay" with really and truly scarred me almost with a numbing effect. Only now, I do feel them.
The Plan:
I have taken the kids to their Dad. I am shutting myself away this weekend, and planting myself at the feet of Jesus until I hear from Him and things change or until at the very least I am changed. I must have a breakthrough. I am going to ask, knock, seek; ask, knock, seek; ask, knock, seek; ask, knock, seek. (Luke 11:9) In the words of David found in Psalm 143:1, "LORD, hear my prayer, listen to my cry for mercy; in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief."
The Scriptural Foundation:
Job 33:26 "then that person can pray to God and find favor with him, they will see God’s face and shout for joy; he will restore them to full well-being."
Psalm 102:17 "He will respond to the prayer of the destitute; he will not despise their plea."
Jeremiah 29:12-13 "Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. "
Jeremiah 31:9 "They will come with weeping; they will pray as I bring them back. I will lead them beside streams of water on a level path where they will not stumble..."
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