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Answers, Please

...and, well, the struggle continues.

This is probably one of the hardest trials I've been in for some time.  Certainly, one of the longest in quite a while.  I'm discovering all kinds of things about myself.  Insecurities I thought I had conquered.  Wounds I thought were closed.  I've even realized some of the things from my past that I thought I was "okay" with really and truly scarred me almost with a numbing effect.  Only now, I do feel them. 

The Plan:

I have taken the kids to their Dad.  I am shutting myself away this weekend, and planting myself at the feet of Jesus until I hear from Him and things change or until at the very least I am changed.  I must have a breakthrough.  I am going to ask, knock, seek; ask, knock, seek; ask, knock, seek; ask, knock, seek. (Luke 11:9)  In the words of  David found in Psalm 143:1, "LORD, hear my prayer, listen to my cry for mercy; in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief."


The Scriptural Foundation:

Job 33:26 "then that person can pray to God and find favor with him, they will see God’s face and shout for joy; he will restore them to full well-being."

Psalm 102:17 "He will respond to the prayer of the destitute; he will not despise their plea."

Jeremiah 29:12-13 "Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. "

Jeremiah 31:9  "They will come with weeping; they will pray as I bring them back. I will lead them beside streams of water on a level path where they will not stumble..."

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