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Out of Control

Over the past year, I have written from some very high and some very low places.  Some of my writing may seem redundant as many of the trials I've faced seem redundant to me at times.  Same life lessons just much harder tests.  Even now, I find myself in the most uncomfortable place I have been in quite a long time.  It is one in which I have absolutely no control--not just in one area but in several areas of my life--not just in my life, but also in the lives of everyone around me.  There is much heartache, turmoil, grief.  What IS going on?  What is He up to?

I have learned in these past 3 years, that God is always in control.  He is more in control when we are not which is really the best place to be.  So, that, through all of these circumstances in our lives, He will be glorified not only in us, but also through us.  I know His ways are higher (Isaiah 55:8-9) and I depend on that to get me through the tough times, the fiery trials.  He does have a plan and according to Psalm 33:11, "...the plans of the LORD stand firm forever, the purposes of His heart through all generations."  No matter what you may be facing, God can always turn it around for your good whether it be to purify, to strengthen, to teach, or just so He can bless you beyond your comprehension.  We just have to trust Him and know that He is our God and He is ALWAYS in control.

During several weeks of relentless attacks, I sought much needed counsel.  Upon confiding in my closest friend, she replied, "He hasn't left you or tossed you out without His protection.  He is  merely teaching you to walk."

Psalm 25:4,5  "Show me Your ways, O Lord; teach me Your paths.  Guide me in Your truth and faithfulness and teach me, for You are the God of my salvation; for You [You only and altogether] do I wait [expectantly] all the day long.

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