The Journey

Photo by Jude Beck "Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it." Proverbs 4:23 My life is evidence of this Biblical passage. Every choice, every decision, every path can be traced back to the place where I was in life at that defining moment. The point of origin reveals where my heart was, what my priorities were at the time, the utter darkness of where I stood. Truly blind; I could not see. Chasing dreams, desires, unrealistic goals, and unattainable joy by unthinkable means, I was a ship without a captain sailing into uncharted, unsafe waters. No direction, no lifeline, no lighthouse. Unnecessary detriment because my heart was led astray by meaningless ventures and pursuits of things that could not satisfy the void that I was running from all the while running headlong into gross darkness. Much like running as fast as you can forward while looking behind you and ultimately slamming into a wall you should have seen if only you had been looking in...

Photo by Jon Tyson As many of you know, this year has been awfully hard for me due to illness. A year is a long time to be unemployed and an infinitely long time to not feel well, especially when you have two small children to raise on your own. I have been in prayer about things we need, things we want, and things we could do without.  We have been very blessed to be surrounded by ministering angels right here on earth. Every month we have had a roof over our heads, food on our table, and we have even enjoyed much of our wants. Regarding those things we could do without--He has healed me from sickness, resolved troublesome situations, and has quieted many storms--God has had endless mercy on us! In my quiet time this morning, I began reading in the book of Psalms.  I love this book of the Bible because David, a man after God's own heart, wrote heartfelt, honest words. He cried out from the very depths of his soul, but with the utmost respect and honor for his maker, for ...